1.How We Kill Ourselves
Lyricist：Scott Windsor
We all have our simple ways of killing ourselves and this is
yours
Denying it all by covering it up, you were never the best at
smiling
So stay up all night, just to say you are tired
To say you are tired, just to say you are tired
I think I'll stay in tonight, I can't help to think thoughts of
home
I miss the chairs at the coffee shop
Doing nothing for five minutes and talking for hours
Conversation never ran dry, I'm talking for hours, I'm talking
for hours
I'm talking for hours, I'm just talking
We all have our simple ways of killing our thoughts
And this is yours and I have mine
2.The 20th Year
Lyricist：Scott Windsor
We are still young
But we're trying so hard not to be
Fake ID's and lies
Let's grow up to be people we hate
It's starting to burn hot and it's running out
How could I forget your face？
How could I forget your grace？
We soared into the skies
Call me obvious, call me untimely
But I just hate the way things change
Nothing is ever obvious to me
I need an embrace to set me on a rampage
I'd tear down the places I've been and listen to the applause
I'd listen to anything but the lies in my head
We soared into the skies
Call me obvious, call me untimely
But I just hate the way things change
And I just hate the way things change
We all love God when things are right
But the fact of the matter is
They never, they never are
3.Cowboy
Lyricist：Scott Windsor
Darlin', I've got some sad news today
So sit down and brace yourself
'Cause I'm not enjoying life out here
In this cowboy life, in this cowboy town
Darlin' you're the only thing that I've got going here
But other than that, barren to the core
I got whiskey in my blood that needs to be purged
That needs to be purged
So send word to my mom and dad
That I'm heading out west to dream with the seagulls
And lay with my thrift store clothes
'Cause this pale skin, it needs a tan
And I just don't want to be a cowboy anymore
So I'll follow the smoke to the coast
And just sit in traffic for hours
I'll just sit with my thoughts
I think that I could watch the waves all day
So darlin' follow me out there
We'll make a new life
We'll make a new life
We'll send word to our parents
That we're heading out west to dream with the seagulls
And lay with our thrift store clothes
'Cause our pale skin, it needs a tan
I just don't want to be a cowboy anymore
4.Mixtapes and Memories
Lyricist：Scott Windsor
I promise this won't be another song
About being alone but all I feel is regret
And I can't find the nerve
To pick up the telephone
I was thinking about how it drives me crazy
Just to feel your hand in mine
And how simple that is
And I've thought about saying no to hope
But I have this funny habit
Of putting pictures up on the wall of you and me
I know that priorities never understand reality
And time never lends itself to those who are waiting on love
But it is overdue that we should share this night and Grace
Your smile is the only thing that keeps me breathing
The hours pass by like minutes when I'm with you
The hours pass like minutes in the rain
So let's stand here in the rain forever
5.Paper Airplane Dream
Lyricist：Scott Windsor
I can see the smoke stacks in the distance
And I know that we're almost there
This day has been best at overwhelming me
And these thoughts are running races in my head
I'm anxious to see the ocean
And run my fingers through the sand
Will stencil in silly words like 'Love' and 'Forever'
And let the tide run over them
Run over me
We live in a world of familiar strangers that meet
And greet the stale, cold air every morning
I'm always overanxious to get to the point
Overanxious just to get there
I want you to know that I failed in trying to please everyone
The waves are crashing high at their peaks and I wonder
'What in the world are they running from
And what am I running from？'
Counting to ten and taking beep breaths
I'm almost out of opinions
So, I close my eyes real tight
I just want to drive with my eyes closed
I feel numb, out of control
Going crazy, I swear, I'm going crazy
I hear you asking and I hear you pleading
But it's out of my hands
I can't save you, I can't even save myself
I'm not your savior, so save yourself
6.Sometimes
Lyricist：Scott Windsor
Sometimes the inspiration never comes
When all you want is someone to realize your depression
When all you want is someone to say that they care
The sun can be shining but you don't see it
And the love can be there but you don't feel it
And sometimes, sometimes, sometimes the inspiration never comes
And the ransom for your joy is just too much
To show your face means they might judge
They always judge
When all you want is the will to get out of bed
And when all you want is some understanding
Sometimes the inspiration, it never comes, it never comes
7.Emergency
Lyricist：Scott Windsor
I always tell myself to be patient
But my left hand shakes
Against your new couch
Control of the situation
Fell through my fingers
I heard her say
'You can't keep living as if you're dying'
Well, I'm dying
Now what an awkward way to spend the holiday
In such a deviant way to behave
It's amazing how quiet this house is
When the world outside is celebrating their New Year's
And their new fears
Your diction is okay 'cause is medically approved
And the night is expired
Lay me down to sleep
But one more thing can you say, 'Diction？'
Well, I can admit my guilt
Emergency, oh, emergency
Let's whisper goodnight
And now what an awkward way to spend the holiday
Such a deviant way to behave
It's amazing how quiet this house is
When the world outside is celebrating their New Year's
And their new fears
8.The Consequences of Learning How to Fly
Lyricist：Scott Windsor
Heartbeats that race but feet that drag
Your parents split up and I'm left here
To feel sorry for you and I'm just not sure
If this is how it's supposed to be
With me on your bed
Your eyes glued to the TV
And I'm just not sure if I fit in
To this film strip of yesterdays
But this is as real as it gets
This is as real as I can be
And it just feels right
Floating around your room
And it just feels right
Touching your hair
And it just feels right
To hold on to what we felt before
But I'm apathetic with a capital A
And I'm fading into this old chair
Just isn't enough magic to turn this one around
I can't play the role of concerned anymore
She says, 'This life is for the birds'
But heavens know, don't go away tonight
'Cause this isn't about what's on the TV set
It's about how you've handled yourself
And how it isn't working anymore
And it's ten seconds until it gets quiet
It's cold and it's far fetched
To say that spring is around the corner
It's ten seconds until
And if this is how it ends, I'm already dead
And if this is how it ends, I'm already dead
But if this is how it ends, I'm already dead
I'm already dead
I'm already dead
And it just feels right
Floating around your room
It just feels right
So hold on to what we felt before
But I'm apathetic, I'm so apathetic
And I'm fading, I'm fading into this old chair
9.Des Peres
Lyricist：Scott Windsor
In and out of intersections
In a suburb of St. Louis, Misery
In the back, back seat of your parent's gold Volvo
We waved to passing cars and talked about
Who would win the World Series
And now we could care less about baseball
Or how much the rookie card is worth
We could care less
Do you remember those days at all？
When we threw it back in their face
All the girls we kissed
How we thought those days would never end
And here we are today
And now you're getting married
And I'm struggling to find a date
I'm struggling
And all the games we play
Are the same today as yesterday
The rules have changed
Everything has changed
10.Lady Luck
Lyricist：Windsor Scott Ryan
If lady luck is on my side
She will be with me tonight
I barely made this month's rent
Save a lucky hand of cards
I'll think of something next month
Four flights down to the street
To a place we agree to meet
And she is there, waiting so very patiently
Tonight just celebrate luck
Tonight for sure
So I try to live every second of it
So as not to forget how I, how I felt
Always could make you laugh
And I found comfort in that
Old stereos set fire to our ears
Inspired us to put down our nervousness
And forget our fears
Got a bottle full of rum
We won't stop until we're done
And we forget you're leaving
Now you're getting on a plane
You'll arrive in Spain
Such a foreign place
Where they speak in such a foreign tone
It's all foreign to me
Tonight we'll say goodbye
Tonight for sure
So I try to take a picture with my mind
So as not to forget
How beautiful, how beautiful you are
11.Don't Say Maybe, Baby
Lyricist：Scott Windsor
You're a sight for sore eyes
'Cause I've been gone for way too long
And I hope to find you in that white, cherry dress
You had on when I left you
I'm home now, so answer my calls
So don't say maybe, baby
Say yes and don't make me guess
Don't say maybe, baby
When such high feelings are at stake
I just have to see you tonight
So don't say maybe, baby
We'll get in my car, top down and drive up to the hills
We'll look over the city and I'll kiss your lips
From then on I'll know everything will be just perfect
Yeah, just perfect
So tell me you didn't find another man
While I was gone, you know I was true
I remember your scent, your face and
The way your lip quivers when you're nervous
I'll never leave you again
Just don't say maybe, baby
Yeah, don't say maybe
12.The Tops Of Trees Are On Fire
The tops of trees are on fire
And tonight these torches give us light
That we might have some direction in our lives
But I can't see much of anything right now
No, I can't see
I watched you come home from the mountains
We all just thought it was a bad dream
But in reality we knew the honest to God truth
Now all we ask is a little sympathy from the clouds
Now isn't it fate we're chasing after？
Or is she chasing after us？
Or has she come to kiss us our death depart？
We finally have a full understanding
But I wish it wasn't on these terms
Friend to friend
I would do anything to make it end
13.Illustrations Of Melbourne
Did you see the blood that filled the suits？
The razor just above
Could it all somehow be linked？
Her, her long blond hair mops the tiles
As the mirror reflects her crooked smile
Her newly tattooed wrists
And her lightly clenched fists
She whispered
'Stay with me as I fade away'
A scribbled note in which she wrote a way to say
'I'm ready to go
So take my hand, Lord, and lead the way
'Cause I'm ready to go'
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